☆ 刺刺蝟的進化論 ☆

 

為了減少會浪費時間的禍根，我把我的 Facebook wall 移除了

(這招其實是拾人牙慧，一年半前就已經有人幹過了；但我非得對自己這麼絕才行)

這兩天陸續有眼尖的人在FB上發現了，寫message問我怎麼一回事

而我認為會發現的人當中，有些還沒發現，依然每個小時都在更新自己的status，有人留言他照回

我突然明白：很多人其實都是這樣的，在FB上從來不會去看別人的動態

應該很少人會像我這樣，每次登入後，首頁上每個人的update都會去瞄一下吧

我對朋友的關心從來都是很誠懇的（並沒有總是想當八卦集散中心），但是我也花了太多時間關心他們了

而追根究柢，還不是因為我太在意別人會不會因為我沒出聲，就忘了我的存在。

只是，我又不是公眾人物！

 

遅刻だよ...

 

もううんざりだ。

なんて無駄なことをしたのだろう。

不是一個你有資格叫別人做的事情 IN ANY WAY。
於外於內，這世界上你唯一能夠要求改變的人，只有你自己。

  

我覺得最令人心寒的是
we were all friends (or "casual acquaintances" at the least), but because of you... now we are all NOT friends.

妳若要說我從一開始就已經選邊站也無所謂
我也曾一度想要用身為女孩子的同理心去看這整個事件
然而妳從兩個月前到現在都還有的一些小動作，我真的無法理解

 

it consists of only 3 (or 4) words, so which part of the sentence do you not understand?

 

 

 

 

H外商銀行行銷部全部給我去死!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

X邀我是商會不是製版廠  最好是妳們一直三心二意一下改字一下換圖我可以馬上重新出一個版給妳看

沒弄過出版還敢說"這有什麼難的 不就跟word一樣replace就好了嘛" 

妳用排版軟體做給我看.....

妳們到底要找來演講我管不著 all I need is a NAME that I can put in the programme

把我的電話轉到legal dept去是想幹嘛 妳以為光是他們背幾條法規出來就嚇得倒老娘嗎

new CEO還沒註冊不能讓金管會看到關我鳥事  等到十月也該公諸於世了吧

還搞到outgoing CEO親自打電話來"代為"道歉  妳們是白痴嗎?????

處女座所不能忍受的三件事：
1. 我講話你沒有聽進去
2. 我講話你沒有聽進去
3. 我講話你沒有聽進去


身為月亮在處女座又有兩個處女座好友的我不能同意更多

於是從不認真聽別人講話的火象星座應該會馬上被我三振不是嗎?
為什麼又.....

更糟的是，當我已經覺得自己很沒用了的同時，
我還得繼續笑著（因為眾所皆知我笑點很低所以得一直笑？）捧別人的場，
告訴他不要放棄、"是啊，我的事跟你的比起來算哪根蔥"是怎樣。


我真的很沒用。

"我不想回台灣了~"

"這句話妳一定要每次回加拿大就講一遍嗎?" 

可能是因為睏了，媽媽的話中首度出現了politically incorrect 的動詞

但在我還來不及指出這點嘲笑她前  她就接著說：

我們都可以不要那麼在乎  
是否就不會活得這麼辛苦


between momentary sparks of excitement
and sustaining warmth of peacefulness,
I think I am leaning more towards the latter as each day passes by

然而

今天中午吃飯一到一半外頭忽然開始雷電交加
雨整個是用噴的　而且還刮起超強怪風　那些在馬路上的機車族根本無法動彈
又雷聲大作一直啪啪啪的
可是莫過約一小時後就又放晴了

其實這是十分典型的熱帶夏季午後雷陣雨
可是對於當時沒料到會下大雨而沒帶傘出來的人整個就是衰
而遇到情緒也是如此變化多端的人時　若是沒有事先防備　更是吃不消

今晚有個發下豪語（嗯，對他來說的確是豪語）下個月要戒酒的人興高采烈的對我說

Now I truly believe in the statement that work can destroy a friendship.

奇怪....早上還打電話問妳說餐廳訂不到怎麼辦這有任何要"爽約"的意思嘛?
什麼叫做我禮拜一因為喉嚨不舒服沒有陪妳去唱歌
妳就自動連禮拜二吃中飯也要assume我就是不去了啊
(而且喉嚨痛是要唱啥...
妳還好意思說"約了就是約了妳沒來就是妳爽約, 不管妳有什麼理由都一樣")

也許我當時是應該加個"我如果明天不能去的話我再跟妳說"
可是她自己先去跟其他兩個人取消也沒跟我說"哦既然妳不舒服那我們明天就先別約好了"

可不是嗎？
所以，你還繼續流連在那裡，是否不只因為你不願服輸，
而是它應該還有什麼「好處」，是值得你一直為它犧牲付出的？

然而事實是，我們一天都只有24小時而已，
而我們每個人的生活中，無法選擇的時候已經夠多了
所以為什麼不把握那些可以選擇的機會，讓自己更快樂？

Is that really what you want to be bound to for the next 2 years that you are here?
Tell me, what do you see yourself getting out of it?

you have two hands and two feet, you have a brain, you have a college degree,
you are 100 percent capable of supporting yourself,
so why don't you do that, UNTIL the day you can't do that anymore,
then I will WILLINGLY take up that "responsibility".
before that, could you please let me fly, bungee-jump, and get hurt
knowing that it was ME who made my own decision.

I never thought somebody could be so selfish to the extent that everything and anything she says and does all comes down to one word -- conceited.

who would complain to someone about being stressed out coz the supervisor told her to double-check newbie reporters' stories, and then when the other person says: "well, with greater power comes greater responsibility," she retorts: "hey, I'm the one suffering here coz you left this department!"

who would think that being a foreign affairs reporter "and getting to know all the diplomats who will probably put Taiwan on the map once I become close friends with them" automatically makes her superior to everyone else? 

who would assume that everyone in the office HAS to be nice to her ALL THE TIME, and when someone (like me) is in a bad mood and doesn't feel like talking (and I tell her that), she goes on MSN and tells everyone else that "CJ's so temperamental, why can't she leave her emotions at home?"

who would have private parcels sent to the workplace, and then get her coworkers to open them and tell her who they're from? does she honestly think that we would really think she didn't know who sent the parcels?

上次因為World Cup決賽採訪權和我鬧得不愉快的同事，
這個月月初時去泰國做了兩個星期的志工。
其實她本來是要離職了，但主任大概是在人力不足的壓力下（因為我也跳槽了），
而拉下臉問她讓她留下來的條件。
她便跟主任說她想要從醫藥線調到外交線，而主任也首肯了。
只是她隨後便說她要去做國際志工的行程不能推掉，
然後就這樣出國了兩個禮拜。

Looks like your luck did not rub off on me, birthday boy.
I had another row with my supervisor again yesterday.

每天四點是我們記者要向主任報稿的時間，
昨天輪到我的時候，她還沒等我開口就說：
妳上星期五那篇文章開頭怎麼會是quote交通部長？不是在寫高鐵的新營運計畫嗎？
我說我知道啊，因為我想不到別的開頭，而且上次部長說的時候也沒有人寫，所以我就引述他了。

And she said: "Well, it's not like she said it a day before so it was time-sensitive, and government officials say those sort of things all the time (The minister said that she put the safety of the high-speed rail at top priority, and if that wasn't guaranteed, she would give up her job.)"

的人　不是我。

那當然～我脾氣這麼好 XD　
其實應該是說，我生氣時常會假裝沒有在生氣，
甚至還會若無其事的繼續和別人聊天，
然後就會形成一種在外人眼中看似過度高興的奇特情緒 :P　
以後大家可要注意了！

 

跑國防，雖然總是混在男人堆裡，
卻可以玩到很多就算有去當兵也不見得會接觸到的東西。
像是坐吵死人的空軍運輸機去金門勞軍、
親自體驗有如X-box結合NASA模擬太空梭的新型戰車模擬射擊系統、
跳傘（可能啦）...

跑交通，雖然內容繁雜，需要具備小自公車路線大至高速鐵路
的專業知識與update，卻也是最容易一頭栽進去挖資料挖到欲罷不能的類別。

and to tell the truth she has never been the kind of student that you'd ever
think that someday she would get into Harvard...
(unlike my other friend the Microsoft guy who rejected his defer into MIT and stayed in Seattle, to everyone's disappointment... :P)
plus, I barely know her, except that we were in the same group at Orientation 4 years ago.
but I sincerely congratulated her, I truly did.
only as I was doing so, I wondered how many people there would think I was,
"like always," just  pretending to be sincere?

yeah, ok--a little bit of envy is most definitely involved (well, who wouldn't be?!),
considering that school was the ONLY school I ever wanted to go to until I was 15 and realized

又有一個朋友要挑戰我的忍耐極限了。

這次，是一個國中同學，在這裡先稱他為Ｒ吧。
與其說他跟我感情好，不如說他跟我前男友比較好。
前幾天，很久沒見面的Ｒ忽然寫email給我，
說他跟另一個國中同學在ＭＳＮ上聊天，然後Ｒ就向他道歉，因為Ｒ以前常常用課本打他。
前情提要一下，這個被道歉的同學（姑且稱他做Ｌ），
是一個應該是性本善，但總是用錯地方的傢伙。
我有一個大學同學和Ｌ是高中樂隊同組，他也對Ｌ頗有微詞。
Ｌ很令人詬病的地方，在於他會習慣性遲到，而且，是遲到至少一個半小時。