☆ 刺刺蝟的進化論 ☆

There'll come a day, when you walk out of my dreams 

Face to face, like I'm imagining 

Baby how can I be sure, that you're the one I'm waiting for 

Will you be unmistakable?

I'm not an easily liked person, and I also don't like people easily. (I think they're related. LOL)  

And it's been quite some time since I've actually had feelings for another guy.

It didn't start out that way. I thought he was another typical CBC who had pretty eyes and a nice laugh, and was used to having so many female acquaintances that he could easily pick a different one to go out with for 365 nights a year.

But then, things started to happen. Things that I had acknowledged as"passes" back in high school but now dismissed as nonchalant comments and gestures from a Casanova who meant for you to misinterpret. I regarded these actions as those that any other white-washed Taiwanese guy like him would do to his girl-friends. 

Yet... Michael said that a guy doesn't just tell a girl that she reminds him of his ex-ex-girlfriend; according tohis male friend, this "ex-ex" had been someone he had a hard time getting over. The same male friend also told me that on the two occasions that the three of us went out together, he had never seen him so keen to impress... whether it was his knowledge on Japanese sake, or drumming rock ballads on cups and chopsticks. 

Hank said that a guy doesn't proactively seek chances to talk to you every single day if he's not interested in you.

Sharyn and her boy said that it was obvious he treats and talks to me differently than the others.

Tam said that our continuous bickering on photos of one another on Facebook is what normal people call flirting.

Jeff said that the fact he shares his life with me nearly every day is a good sign.

Cheng said that my better half will be a Virgo, who is relatively "feminine" and "emotional" compared to me, and that because of this we will bicker a lot, but maintain a very close relationship spiritual-wise.

Right before he flew to Vancouver, he came to the office one day and after an hour of pointless mingling with whoever was left in the office at the time, asked me if I wanted to grab something to eat. We ended up at my favorite izakaya in the East District and he insisted on treating me. I stood up my dentist that night and had to reschedule to 10 days later. The next day, I found out from our HR that he has never treated anyone in the office in the 10 months that he worked there... not even when he won $10K in cash at the year-end party.

Last Friday, after a whole day of bickering via email, we made a very last-minute decision to have dinner together. He ran into practically half of his ex-coworkers (=my coworkers) on the way over and could have told them the truth (that I had asked him to dinner), but didn't. He whined about having to go home early to do the assignment for his PMP course during the meal, but dragged me over to 鮮芋仙 afterwards. On our way there, we ran into my CEO and his son...

Every night, his conversation window with me and the email Jeff's teacher sent me are the two last things I look at before shutting off my computer. 

I don't think I can make myself any clearer on how I want the outcome to be. And nearly every sign indicates that I can gradually put all my eggs into one basket. But the question is... when?